About a girl

 I read a poem* about a girl

Who lives inside of me

A girl who used to be me

A girl who wants to remind me

That she is still there

This girl is a firecracker

This girl is unafraid

This girl wants the best out of life

And knows I deserve the best

I wondered if this girl ever really existed

When I was two maybe? or when I was 4?

(I think I saw a glimpse of her when I was 40)

At what point did I start to retreat to the safety of compliance?

The safety of saying no when I thought yes

The safety of saying yes when I really wanted to say no

When I was young I used to fall back 

Knowing my dad would catch me

I knew with utter certainty

I believe if I did this now, he still would (or at least would try)

I would like to have this same belief 

That if I jump forwards

Life will catch me 

And take me on a journey

I would like to catch the current of air

And learn to fly

*Remember Her? By Donna Ashworth